I am a generally happy person. I have much to be thankful for and have somehow conned a few people into loving me. It's a good life and God has been very good. But...
Do you ever just get overloaded with things to the point that your brain suffers form extreme fatigue? I'm so tired of worrying about money and being broke these past few months. I'm tired of these ridiculous gas prices and my ever increasing grocery bill. It sucks trying to explain to a 5 year old why we can't go to the "cool playground" because it's a little too far and we are saving gas. Working on homework with the kids every single night gets old. Just being honest. Work is super busy and a source of great stress right now. I worry I can't be a good Husband and Father while worrying about all this other stuff and that makes it worse. I got too involved in the 24 hour news cycle and let it wear me out.
So I am just fatigued right now. A good bit of it is my own fault. When I let this happen I don't sleep well, find myself looking for confrontation, and am just generally disagreeable. In other words, I am a tired ass.
I know we'll be ok, because things always work out one way or another. And money will get better now that Evette has found a job and starts next week. We just gotta hang in there 3 more weeks. Homework isn't going away, but I love my little rug rats so I can always accentuate the positives of helping them. Work won't slow down, but thank God for a job and a job I like doing. I'm also thankful for an awesome family and great friends that make life much more enjoyable.
And ya know what? Gas prices be damned, we're going to the cool playground next time!
